ESCAPE...

I have watched a few episodes of Cinderella's Stepsister in these few days.
Ya,I know I am a bit out-dated.I should watch it in 2010.
Actually,I wanted to watch it when I saw the synopsis from newspaper.
Again,it's due to study.It's quite disappointing and boring aft the 1st  4 episodes.

I am shocked that the main character,Eun Jo is like me,
a typically teenage misanthrope.
Our characters are almost the same,
except that my mum doesn't married many times
but my mum is also money-minded.
I am like Eun Jo as I want to ESCAPE from this house.
Really!!!

I still remember that my mum told me to get money
from her father-in-law(my grandpa)when I asked her to
pay for my tuition fee and that was the time I realised that
money is so pivotal for both of us.
I still remember that my rich,but wicked relatives
teased my family and me in a dinner and that was the time I realised that
being wealth and looking beautiful are extremely important.

I hate these!
Why do I need to "act" nicely to them everytime?
Why do I need to pretend that I don't care what they said about me?
FUCK!!!

I am so angry when I  knew that my cousin
is influenced  bad friends and becomes rebellious.
I won't be upset if that person is not you.
I only care my family member.
I only care those whose parents leave them and
work oversea like what my parents do.
Ya,I really want to be rebellious like what you do.
I really don't like to study and want to burn the books.
I hate the stupid teacher and want to scold her
but I don't do them finally.Why?
I don't scold the teacher as I don't want my grandma to be sad.
I study hard as I want to prove that I can be as good as other children
though I am brought up by my granparents.
However,I finally realise that what I do is in vain.
It's totally a failure
because of what u guys do.
You make other ppl think that we are problem-makers in the society.

It's been 17 years
that I live without my parents though my dad loves me very much.
I don't have the right to compete with my two sisters
to struggle for parental love.

During my childhood,
I found out that marriage is a thing that
can either "decorate" or "spoil" your life.
It's not exactly crucial in life.
I don't need it to enrich my life.
Furthermore,I don't think that I will meet a good guy
like Eun Jo meets Ki Hoon.

Yesterday,I met my former tuition teacher .
I really thank him though he is fierce.
He is the person to show me that my effort will be paid off.
I will remember that that was the moment that
I really worked for what I want and it worked~
However,I am tired already.I really want to give up.

I just want to escape from this house
and learn to be independent and even strong.
I want to go to other places
and make my mind wider.
I don't want to be a good person as kindness will never be appreciated.
I want to be a villain.