I promise I will fly

This song "Fly" is sung by Super Junior-KRY.
I wish you guys will love it.
Its lyrics is so nice that I think
it will bring hope and cheer to many of us.

I finally decide to study the Foundation in Arts in UTAR Kampar Campus.
Perhaps it may not be a wise decision in many people's opinion.
I'm afraid that I have made a stupid decision.
Someone said I should study science subjects in Form 6
but I am only interested in Chemistry and I don't
think I can work systematically in a science lab.
Someone said I should study Bussiness or Marketing
and work in private sector.
Someone said I should become a school teacher.
Someone said I should not go to UTAR.
So confusing...

Is there any U-turn for me?
Never mind.
If UTAR is really bad in teaching and facilities,
I still can study English Language or
Mass Communication in UCSI
after completing my foundation in UTAR.
I must be homesick if I am so far away from home.
I still can visit my family members if I study in UTAR.
It is an opportunity for me
to learn independence and make new friends.
It can lead me to adapt to new environment
if I have to leave my hometown for my job.
Perhaps I should persuade myself that it is
not too bad to study there.
It is time for me to fly.

Actually,I want to become a fashion journalist.
Shheehh...Don't tell anyone.
It's my secret.
If I really can't make my dream comes true,
I can become a magazine editor or
a tuition teacher.
Do you think it is a good idea?
I hope I will have the courage to
pursue my dream.

It was so shocking that I found
out my former tuition teacher's younger son
was attacked by a terminal blood cancer last week.
I wish he can get well soon.Fighting~
Life is so barbarous and it will
end up easily without leaving any spots.
Nobody knows his own lifespan.
I don't care when I will die as
life is not measured by the number of breath.
I will care what I have not done during my lifetime.
Am I regretful if I haven't fulfill my dream before my death?
Is there anything that I want to tell to my lovely
family members and friends before my death?

I promise I will work hard to pursue my dream before my death.
I promise I will fly to Maldives,Copenhagen and Santorini oneday.
I promise I will FLY higher and HIGHER althought it is not easy...

T-junction

I'm at T-junction now.
I completely don't have any idea for
where I want to study.
Utar provides English degree
and I can get full scholarship for foundation.
It's the cheapest and fastest way if I study in utar
but many said graduates from utar can't
get a job that they want.

Before that,I plan to study in Form 6
and continue my degree in Singapore.
I want to change to Arts Stream
but I don't have any basic in Accountancy
and Business.
I'm lazy to go for tuition and tired to study so hard.
What a boring school life!
I'm afraid I can't get good result in STPM
and cannot enrol in both local public or private universities.
I'm scared I will watse the time and money.
Yesterday,my mum told me that Singapore doesn't
accept Form 6 Arts students.Fuck!!!
Should I study foundation in Arts if I want
to study English degree?

UCSI provides the course I want
but I don't know whether its foundation
is accredited by MQA.
Maybe I should study in Form 6
and continue my degree in UCSI.
Aihh,need to spend money again!
I don't really want to give any burdens to my dad.
I hope he can stay here and doesn't go back to Germany again.

Utar?Form 6?
Which one I should choose?
Can't life be as easy as ABC?
Can anyone help me?

I hope I can make my decision as soon as possible
without regretting.
I don't want to spoil my life.
I need hope,bravery and luck.