Where should I go?

I have tried to find some pic of road but I can't find suitable size that I want.
I was really tired and sad these few days.
My grandpa finally went home after staying in
hospital for a few days.
I was really upset when my aunt blamed my sis and me
as we didn't take good care of  Grandpa.
I knew it's my fault but did anyone want him to be sick?
Why did  you all never think that it's also
your faults as you work oversea and only care about your children?
Why did you all never think that you can make in living in Malaysia?
You never think that we live miserably as if we have not parents
because you're afraid that you can't earn money and lead a better life here.
You never consider how we feel.

I saw some arrogant  relatives visiting my grandpa.
Their face was flushed with anger when I didn't greet them.
FUCK!
In my mind,I never know what politeness is
and I only know  what a hypocrite is.
I will never act like a hypocrite like
what you did though I won't be liked by others.
I was used to it and I will just compare you
with SHIT!
It's exactly the same--terrible and lousy.
You will never get my respect forever and forever.

I finally didn't go for my driving  test.
I hate to drive car.It's troublesome.
Those who teached me driving are awful and lousy.
I hate to live in Malaysia.
Why should they scold when I didn't understand Malay?
Why should we,Malaysian Chinese learn their language?
Why don't they also learn our language?
That man who tested me in QTI is insane.
God is also mad .God likes to tease me.
I have expected I can't drive well
but why didn't my effort pay off when I worked hard
in aspect that I was apt to whereas others can own success easily?

I really want to leave here
and start a new life.
FREEDOM!That's what I long for
but where should I go?

I should get my driving license quickly.
I must earn more money before I leave here.
I must go to somewhere that I can find peace,freedom and dream
but where should I go?