Nobody wants to know me.Nobody wants to care me.
It's a bit boring and sad to go through these days.I would not say it's hard as there are many people who live harder than me.Yeah,I shouldn't grumble about it.Maybe living alone is a better lifestyle for me.
Oh,yes!I almost forget to introduce myself.I'm a newbie for blogspot but I had been blogging using wretch which is usually used by Taiwaneses.I had stopped using it as I was having problem with the Chinese Star XP System.So,I try to use blogspot now as I can put pic easily thought I seldom take photos.
I doesn't have an attractive appearance as u can see in my photos.Sometimes,I am sad about it but it is useless to do so.Life must go on.Furthermore,it is weird if I look beautiful as it will not match with my wicked character.It must be special meaning or mission why God gives an ugly appearance,a sluggish brain and a 'special' family background(my parents work outstation and I am brought up by my grandparents).Isn't God want me to begin cosmetic and skincare business to help those who have the same faith like me?Isn't God want me to gain success to prove to my mum that her ugly daughter can find a job thought I look simple?Pls forgive me for lying to myself.It's a way that I comfort myself but I strongly believe that I can achieve my goals oneday.I will show those who intentionly tease me that they are actually uglier than me.
I have been wasting my time in these days.I should change my attitude and reborn.I should restart my journey.These are my wishes for 2011:
1)Getting 10As in SPM
Achievable:50%(I didn't work really hard this time.I was shocked while having Mathematics test.It's
unexpectedly difficult and it's a shame if I can't get A+ for it.I think I had used wrong tenses for my English essay.It was a stupid decision to choose that question.I was almost fainted as I was writing nonsense for Malay novel part and I simply did my Physics.)
2)Getting my driving license
Achievable:40%(I still don't know the skills about parking and others.Moreover,the man who teaches me driving is not really good and reliable.It's still need some time to do it and may waste a lot of money.)
3)Being cared by others
Achievable:20%(Sometimes,I really think that I'm transparent like air.It's the most heartbroken memory in 2010 when I was 'abandoned' by my friends during the graduation ceremony as I didn't wear gorgeous gown like what they weared.They just left me alone and went around to take photos with the others.I admit that I didn't spend much time with them but I often lent my homeworks and helped them whole-heartedly.Now,I realise that I am nothing to them.I don't expect that I can become popular among my friends but at least don't isolate me thought I am tought.)
4)Losing my weight
Achievable:0%(I dOoon't think I can do it as I am lazy to do exercise and I eat a lot everyday.)
Lastly,I hope I can learn to be more independent and all my family members are in the pink of health as they are important than whatever.
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