Regret!!!

After 4 days,SPM results will be announced.
I'm afraid I can't get straight As.
I'm afraid I will disappoint them--
Grandma,grandpa,dad,sis,Mr Yoong
and also other relatives.
They really have high expectation towards me.

I regretted I didn't try my best in the exam.
I regretted I didn't use the correct tenses
while writing the English essay.
I regretted I slept a lot during the preparation.
I regretted I didn't attend for extra tuition
for Physics.
I regretted I didn't work hard in Malays,History,Biology...

However,it's too late for everything!

Gambling...

There are many people in this world prefer
to be  gamblers.
I met a special "gambler" last night.
Life and future are her wager that
makes her different from other ordinary gamblers.

During her first gambling,
she staked her career
and she really destroyed it.
Did she really completely lose everything?
No,she didn't.
To your surprise,she won friendship and family support.

Now,she decides to start another trial.
It's another horrible gambling.
She tries to attain her dream.
This time,life and future will again become her wager.
It'a tiring journey to oppose others'perceptions.

I can feel how determined she is from our conservation.
I doubted that where she can get such
courage that guides her to make such decision.
Yup,she's like what her friends said---crazy but tough.

I look back my life.
I have made a terrible mistake.
I did't appreciate any opportunities
to know who I was.
I rejected to learn new thing
and to be closer with my friend.
I was afraid to know my weakness
and to be hurt by my friends.
This made me to be isolated by others.
I remained to be out-dated.
Courage is what I am lack of.

This "gambler" taught me some new things
though there were still some that I didn't believe
but I strongly believe that she will win that challenging gambling.

I must start to work hard.
I can't decide how my background is
but I still can decide how my future is.
Hard work will be my precious wager that can fulfill my dream.

Good luck,Miss "Gambler".

Exhausted...

I love this pic so much.I got it from a blog.

I have not seen such breathtaking scenery for a long time.

It's the same world but why is the world

so small and "ugly" in my mind?

Today is a very sad day.

I have wasted the money and time

but I also didn't pass my driving test.

I don't know why I was so nervous.

It's the thing that I always can't control it.

My tears almost fell down.

My nose turned red.

It's so heart-breaking that I could not

accept it  right now.

I nearly did it but in vain.

Now,I think I should believe in what my aunt said.

I can study well but useless for everything.

I can't draw well as I don't have such talent.

I can't involve in sport as I don't have such talent.

I shouldn't waste my time and money to learn driving.

Everyone knows that I don't have such talent.

I regreted for making such stupid decision.

I should realise that the world is so cruel

and I was born in this way--foolish and talentless.

I'm exhausted.

I admit that I'm afraid of challenges.

Can I just do what I like?

I just want to be comfortable and relaxing.